Rosa flowers in those days VI
I did not want to be totally blamed for our fissure and contradiction, it’s unequal to me. Until now, I still say to myself like this. I don’t know what the problem between us. Every time when I see through the wedding gowns pictures, I feel my heart tearing. 
What kind of his mood was at the pictures-taking day? How did he make it- he hid himself so deep that I can distinguish who was the true him.
When I saw he held, in his words, he was hold by, another girl- his ex-girlfriend’s hand. I, I was startled. Excuses all seemed reasonable: he just formally said goodbye with her, he couldn’t be such a cruel man when she requested a hand and a hug from him, and he must made a totally ending with the manner. And all were for me!
I did not remember how I went back to dormitory. I stared at wedding gowns pictures, with a totally empty mind. I was recalling his good to me the whole afternoon. Nelly called me during the time, she said she wouldn’t come this week for the forthcoming exams and hoped me well with Nicholas. But she still appeared since she heard from Larry the thing.
We instantly set out to C city. I wanted to forget Nicholas, forget the wedding gowns pictures, forget his hand was on another girl’s hand, and forget his good and bad.
New role:
Zoy: an extroverted boy, a brother boy of me.
Joy: introvert, another extreme end of Zoy, they are diehard followers.
When we just arrived the train station C city, Zoy and Joy’s call came in: where are you? We have been in station. Attention to our waves! And then was Zoy’s bravado laugh. That’s him.
We directly went to that familiar Laogan Ma hot pot restaurant. There was still as it always was. I admitted the spicy helped me forget somebody and something.
But when we sat in the dark corner to sing “Who knows”, I cried behind the smoking ring. Since I ran across Nicholas and her, I cried the first time. Zoy put me into his hug, said nothing. And others, I listened to Nelly’s sound of singing: “If you are tired, give it up, silly girl; you are fired, you do not cry, silly girl; there will another boy for you, silly girl.” What a nice song and nice sound!
